hellooooo :]
It's been 2 weeks! So, I'll give you the run-down:
I'm a full-fledged Gaga freak <3
I slept over Yaizzelle's house this weekend as a birthday celebration, AMAZINGLY FUN<3
Um, I saw New Moon opening day with Devon by a miracle of one of their friends not going :) It was soooo much better than Twilight
Daddy seems to be back, not sure for how long or anything like that. No promises-type situation, I guess.
Tomorrow's my birthday! :D
Thanksgiving was pretty lame this year. I mean it was cool that the whole family was able to ge together, but the food was lame, THERE WAS NO PIE, and it was just all very non-thankgiving-ish. I didn't even watch the Parade! D:
um, what else...? OH! Gio might be coming back home because of a whole dilemma with Jose and everyone in the apartment. Everyone's just kinda dropping like flies there, and Gio's not keeping up and yadda, yadda, so daddy talked to him and apparently they worked something out. I have no idea what that is, but yeah.
Cervantes and Alvarez have crushes on me :\ it horrible. Alex actually asked me out on a date -_- not fun.
OH, speaking of Alexs, Alex called me on thanksgiving and played some piano for me and we actually talked for about 15 minutes. Very nice. It was cool. idk, I didn't miss it, but it was just nice. Um, that's about it for now.

Progress reports come out on the second, the show is on the first, and that's about it.
Oh yeah, Garcia's totally loving me :)
byebye, LJ.

I'm still super in love with this song. And of course, Glee lol.
Anywho, let's go over the past the week, shall we?

Tuesday:got report cards. I am a straight A/B student :D so great. Probably the best report card since kindergarten or something lol. BUT THEN, devastation struck the cast and crew of DHM. We lost Johann, Janice...and Dante. D: So depressing. So immediately we asked people to fill in spots and finally got Chris and Jeannie. Jeannie is playing Aarvid xD Natalie was so awkward with all the kiss stuff and it makes me giggle.

Wednesday: Vet's Day, I went shopping ALL day for baby shower when I should have been working on my science project and Garcia vocabulary.

Thursday: Nothing exciting. Stayed up til 3am working on Garcia and science project lmao. Horrible experience, but then I came to the relization that I pulled an all-nighter and didn't have a breakdown. It's basically a first. I'm growing up :,D And guess who showed up?! Gio! :D

Friday: Very proud of myself for finishing my vocab and doing all of the questions on the test. Left before 5th to finish my project and went back to school to turn it in and for rehearsal. I had a delayed breakdown lol. For fucking "Walleye Woman" again. :\ We decided to do it in falsetto and just forget it. Gio left around 5:40 and I got to see Jose and Irvin. :D

that's about it for now. My room looks like a mess, I need something to wear for a baby shower and a wedding right after. I'm sleepy, and also kinda...you know lol.

Goodnight?

so, I realized that (1) I have been ignoring you, LJ, and (2) I never talked about the Killers! That concert was THE BEST and although all I have to kind of reference it to is panic, it still blew my mind more than anything. And those couple of days were the best ever. Like, omg, I have been wanting to go back ever since. I can't believe it's been a month. It's like, in those couple of days so much happened and I just want it all back right now lol.

Basically now I'm just drowning in work and really, really, want that bad thing lol. And I also want to spend time with a certain person, but we all know that'ss not happening ay time soon either. I'm just trying to get by right now, like, ugh, school is getting on my nervessss. I want to live it up, fuckkk.

Rehearsals are going pretty good for Don't Hug Me, which I said I'd make it into :P and with that my schedule is filled to the rim. I have a semi-not-so-much stagecrush. It kinda went away after the first kiss we had to do, but idk. We'll see. It looks like I'm going into a pseudo-breakup with my pseudo-boyfriends. What a shame.

I have devised a plan to bombard him with a hug, by the way. Like, really, I don't care anymore. He can get over it. XD

Alright, so I really have to stop stalling my stealing answers off of the internet and finish this damn Garcia packet before Vampire Diaries starts<3. iloveyouuuu. Who? I honestly have no idea, but fuck ittt. Peace.

hm. I think i'd have to give world peace. I know it's lame and beauty pageant bs, but it's true. Everything is just about failing nowaays, and I think we just all need some peace and love.

          So, today I had this weird, butreallyIexpectedit, mood change at lunch. Thank god adri showed up before the waterworks came. I mean, I wasn't going for it, but I could tell something was going to erupt. I almost ended up giving in, but that won't happen again. I have to stop you know. Haha, funny that "Ignorance" is on. Listening to brand new eyes stream and eating my second carrot muffin of the hour. Didn't have lunch today. 
         Uh, tomorrow's auditions and I basically have it down. My song's kinda crappy but whatev, it's cocky to say, but I know I'm gonna make it. Whatev. And eeeeeeeeeekkkkkk! 8 days until the Killers :D I'm so exciteddd. I think I'm done rambling for today. 

goodbye.
    

3 days until GG!x758646423276986  :D
[I wanted to put multiple exclamtion points, but then I remembered how much I hate them once I saw it typed out.]

today was great, and it went bby in a flashhh. I had so much fun doing the pep rally. I anchored like I thought, and Adri and I switched off between pep rallies. But man, it was awesome. Nobody was spirited though, it just died. :/ so sad. Much, much, much better on the floor han on the bleachers though.

I got some practice filming raiin yesterday lol. Now I have to do a weather report, haha. I also saw The Vampire Diaries yesterday. It has a pretty good (and sexy) plot twist lol, but a lot of how they shot it was Twilight-esque, and that drove me crazy...with laugter lol. The fact  that they want to model it after a bad movie is funny to me.

Uhm, everything else is pretty chill. I failed my first chem lab, but it was because David poured the water too fast and the blue, red, and green liquids all mixed togather, so sad. :| but whatev, first lab. Everything else is going great though. I'm pretty sure I got an A on my math test today :D

That's all. I have to go shower and get all of this ridiculous sweat off of me. >.< 

was interesting. Day went as usual and then lunch came -_-
We were sitting at the table and whatever and I was looking for Alex so I could say happy birthday to him, and then I chickened out, I guess and I just texted him. All he said was thanks, which I expected, but then adri went on a rant about how I should tell her who he was. I tod her the general direction and she decied to go over there and ask -_-. So then I get a message about 40 minutes later asking if I sent her. It was whatever. Like, I don't even know what to do anymore. He's fine, he doesn't need me. I hurt him. I broke it off, I'll accept it, again. I make this all complicated, blah, blah, blah. I ust still have that little bit of a hope that he'll just stop being so stubborn. But, I haven't been giving him his space, I guess.

Rest of the day was fine. Mom and dad are going out. No word when he's coming back though.

p.s- I'm making a promise to myself for next week at school.

p.p.s- I'm sorry. I wish you could. You never knew.

Hah, I was thinkiing about this the other day.
1. Love, always and forever.
2. Peace, and/or the act of getting there.
3. Laughter, smiles, the feeling of being and enjoying time with those you care about.
4. Revelations.
5. Life changes.
6. Making others happy as a job.
7. Gatherings of people enjoying a single thing all at the same time and feeling like they belong together for that period of time.

The more I think about it, the more I'm proud of myself. It was my decision for a reason, not so I could turn back on it, so I could free myself of it. So here I am, feeling brand new. There's no better feeling than this. I'm glad what happened happened, but now it's time to keep moving forward. Optimism wins. :D<3

so. School started and I'm pretty satisfied with my classes, I suppose. The people, not so much. I saw him on the first day. Didn't talk, of course, but what can I expect? Um, I guess I just want him to be okay, you know? I wish I could just say "sit with me" or something, but I haven't even heard his voice after I've been in front of him twice already. Whatevs.

I have TV Pro, but I'm pretty sure I'm switching out for chorus, I couldn't resist lol. Firestine says he's making a seventh period for advanceed so it'll be a clean switch. I'm also going to be an official thespian lol. Carrey is sending in the paperwork soooon :D

And I know I said I wanted to work on that whole ournal thing, and I still do, but 3 APs is not very easy and just settling into school for that matter. I just hope it gets better, becaus at this point it feels kinda lame. I have 2 friends, one if you really think about it. :\ I need to get chorus back, those are my friends. and if i stay at the table, I'm setting myself up for a fail on the friends front. I might just have to be a chorus room lunchie, which I don't mind, of course :)

Now I'm off to study for AP US test.

au revoir.

So, I've decided to write a more in-depth type of journal. Let's see how this goes.
<3

I have been ignoring you. D;
All is well, I suppose. Dad's still not home;
met the new drama teacher today, and me likey;
I am 99.9999999% sure of going to the partay on Friday! :D;
I ordered Pineapple Express from netflix for a two week trial for the shindig;
 have cupcake mix and icing;
um, eelse is goood;
OH! I finished Cholera. It was super cute. The overall book was okay, but cute in the end.
'sabout it, yo.
peace :D

ohandi'mstillinlovewithedwestwickkkk. <3 lol random~

omj, thank you LJ. Seriously, it's so ridiculous. Most celebrities--using the operative word most coughparishiltoncough-- spend enough of their time entertaining us for movies, music and such, so why shouldn't we just give them a break, sheesh. I believe in the whole, treat them as if they were regular people, which they are btdubz, in case you forgot while you burned your brains out watching TMZ. ;P 

Not at all, I'm barely beginning to believe that there's a reason for everything, so this is completely a negative for me. There are emotional explanation, compulsive and impulsive explanations and everything else which can be explained by science...so does that mean my answer is a yes.?_?

So, it's been a whileeee. After we dropped Gio off at the station, mom was bawling like hell and she ended up pulling me into it and made me cry about her crying and it was just bad. D: and then she asked me to apologize for him seeing al of the fighitng between her and dad, but it's like, "wtf? I see it everyday" but, I guess I understood her.

Uh, after then, it's been super dull. I went to school to see Dev and the Sapphires, I'm becoming a groupie alreafy :D lol. Dad told me that I could have a shindig soon...uh, something seems to be getting beter between mom and dad, but I'll bite my tongue on that one. Other than thatttt, my uterus is in major pain, I'm gaining weight OR AM JUST BLOATED which is what I want to elieve lol, and I reallyreallyreally have to read now and hang up all of the clothes that I went through trying to find an outfit for the CSM meeting on tuesday and B&N tomorrow! :D

godilovethatplace<3

it's been five days since Ilast posted. Uh, I have been thinking about next year a lot seeing as it's only a month away -_______-
I have begun watching SYTYCD thanks to Devon lol. I haven't worked on Sackboy because Gio iss here and I want the whole operation to be a secret lol. Today there's this thing at Sabrina's house, but I reallllly don't feel like going, so I'm not :D. Also, I have begun to think that I am becoming my mother's daughter. I'm starting to become very fashion cautious :/ but whatev.

Uh, YZ is gettin on the nerves with all of her "my babyyyyy, aw booo, il my babee" yadda, yada, yadda. It's like fuhh, shut up. -_-
OH, and I bought myself a USB and Coraline :D hopefully I'll watch it with Gio before he leaves.

Done. Peace.

Voice posts up the ass. But whatevv. Um, today has been equivalent to ero in productivity. I woke up at 4:44 in the morning and stayed up until 8-ish doing Sudoku and then trying to go back to sleep. And then I woke up around 11 something and it was butt fuck dark outside whichit still is, btw, and I wathed Spongebob and slept. So basically, I've been asleep all day and the rest of the time was devoted to sudoku and spongebob, great, huh?

Well, tomorrow Cisco is supposed to come over, but not sure yet. I'm super anxious. He just makes me nervous :x
And also, I'm supposed to be driving and going to Big Lots with mom tomorrow. get my bargain on ;] lol

So now, I'm going to shower, I guess.

Goodnight xx